Weather: Hot (although not yet WTF hot). Days til Fall: 131
Technically we’re in “dry summer” here in Phoenix. I’d always been under the impression that the desert only had 3 seasons – tolerable, hot, and WTF hot. So color me surprised when I learned that we actually have 5 seasons – dry summer, wet summer, fall, winter, and spring. The dry vs wet has to do with the monsoon season – something I’m very much looking forward to! We don’t get much rain here in the desert, so you have to really appreciate every drop (and keep your fingers crossed for actual rain instead of just dust storms).
Moving on…so as I mentioned last month, this has been the year for travel so far. Over the last couple months I’ve been to California, New Mexico, Wyoming, South Dakota (with a short stop in Nebraska), and I’m headed back to California next week. I’m tired. But it’s been fun discovering new places and seeing different parts of this country. (smile) You don’t have to look very hard to find cool things just a state (or three) away, and I do love that about the U.S. In fact, I’ve set myself a bit of a mission to see all 50 states now. I’m pretty close – only 17 to go!
Unfortunately, I’ve neglected to build any downtime in all the craziness so my body decided to mandate a bit of rest. Sometimes I forget that I can’t just keep pushing through. Since I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia I’ve read a lot of stories and met quite a few people with conditions that are significantly worse than mine. I feel lucky that I can go and do as well as I do, but the downside is that sometimes I forget that I can’t go and do as much as I’d like. When that happens I usually end up with a small taste of what life could be like and it’s not pleasant.
May 12th was fibromyalgia and chronic pain awareness day. I meant to post something then, but…but I didn’t. It’s a topic I still haven’t really found the words for although I search for them. Maybe one day when I’ve grown more accustomed to it all, if that ever happens. For now suffice it to say that it’s real and deserves not only awareness but also serious respect.
I’ve only been quiet here in this space for just over a week, but it feels like forever. In some ways it has been, particularly in regards to being an active part of the blogging community. There have been few posts and very little time for reading/liking/ commenting on other blogs. (If you’re reading this, know that I do plan to catch up!) If nothing else I’m hopeful that the next couple days of lying low will enable me to do that at least (smile). I miss blogging – and by that I mean blogging in earnest, not just posting photos here and there. I want to get back into the swing of things, back into the community, and back into the story. I want to re-prioritize this “hobby” that brings so much joy.
I realized quite recently that I’ve been down the rabbit hole the last few months. I’ve been off taking care of things that don’t really matter in the grand scheme of things instead of focusing on what’s important. I do this sometimes – well, oftentimes really – because it’s easier, safer. But I grow tired of the rabbit hole. When I was younger, these side paths were a fun adventure. As I grow older, they lose their appeal. I’d like to focus now on those things that really matter to me.
I’ve been reading a lot about living the life you want vs chasing the goals you think you want and trying to figure out what that means exactly. It’s one of those philosophical things that makes perfect sense if you glance at it from the corner of your eye, but makes your head hurt when viewed full on. Philosophy was never my strong suit. Determination, however, I have in spades, so there’s that! (smile)
So, life lately. It’s been a lot of cars and planes; adventures and frustrations; old habits and new ideas. Life lately has been exhausting, but I don’t regret a bit of it and that’s really all that matters.
P.S. Even though I’ve been a total slacker when it comes to blogging, I have been upping my Instagram game – make sure to follow me for all the fun!