Life Lately: Lucky 33

Aspen Trees, Flagstaff ArizonaWeather: Unseasonably (and record-breakingly) warm
Days til winter: Unknown

As you can see the weather outlook is back. Apparently, I was a bit optimistic in my last update back in September about that whole “yay, it’s fall!” thing. What makes me really sad about the weather is the realization that winter days here are finite and every too-warm day means one less cooler day before summer strikes again. I’m slowly moving from lovingly annoyed to downright resentful of the desert these days.

I feel like I have to at least acknowledge the whole election mess. I’ve debated writing more about the whole deal but I feel like I’ve still got a lot of thoughts to work through first. Even then I’m not sure if I’ll share or not. I do know that it’s been really disheartening to see all the negativity post-election. Perhaps if I was in a better place personally I might be able to put some kind of positive spin on it all, but right now I just don’t have it in me. Truthfully, that statement pretty much sums up how I feel about life in general right this moment.

Aspen Trees, Flagstaff Arizona

I’ve been pretty quiet the last couple months here on the blog and on other pages. I haven’t had much time to update my page or keep up with my usual reading – and I really, really miss it. I miss the interaction – every time I read a post I feel like I’m catching up with a friend and it’s been a little…lonely without that. I’m determined to re-prioritize as soon as possible, but in the meantime, just know my absence isn’t by choice.

The primary reason for the quiet is a perfect storm of maladies. My teammate at work was out the whole of October with pneumonia. It was actually pretty scary there for a week or so and I can’t tell you how relieved and grateful I am to have her back. The other issue has been my own personal health.

I’ve mentioned previously that I have fibromyalgia. I’m lucky in that my symptoms generally allow me to function fairly normally most of the time. But due to a number of things (aka “life”) I suffered a “flare” at the end of October that totally knocked me flat. Just as I was rebuilding from that I got the mother of all sinus infections that took me right back down again. And through it all I had to keep up with work while trying to keep myself and Oxford alive (he’s a very high maintenance cat). The last 6 weeks have been hard – and I am so tired.

Aspen Trees, Flagstaff Arizona

Ah but today. Today is my birthday. So, I’ve been desperately trying to keep a smile on my face and to be grateful for all of the good things in my life. Even though I’m having a hard time with positivity right now, I can always find a reason to be grateful. Gratitude has become a bit of a life preserver for me on those days I can’t pull myself out of the dark. It pulls me toward hope and that’s the best first step towards getting my head back in a positive space. So there’s my silver-lining – guess I had one in me after all! (smile)

Yeah, so this wasn’t really the birthday post I’d been planning. That one was a much perkier ode to the last year, full of positivity about the future. But this one is a more truthful account of my life lately and so I’m going to leave it as written. I’m tired and I don’t have it in me to pretend today. Besides, to paraphrase the song, “it’s my birthday and I’ll [insert verb here] if I want to…”

* Photos were taken in northern AZ back in October.

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4 thoughts on “Life Lately: Lucky 33

  1. Happy Birthday! I’m making a birthday wish for you now that tomorrow when you wake up it’ll truly be fall weather…like for real fall weather, not AZ or TX fall weather. ugh. I hear you on that.
    I noticed your tweet about John Oliver’s last episode in your side bar- I love him too. He rocks and I think that episode really did say it best, especially as we wrap up this year as we are. *sigh*
    Hope you feel much, much better soon. And yep, cry, stomp your feet, sigh loudly….anything at all. Sometimes that’s just what birthdays call for.

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    • You know, I think your birthday wish worked – I woke up this morning and it was actually chilly! And the Weather Channel swears the high tomorrow will be in the 70s. I can’t even begin to thank you for sending those vibes out into the Universe!! So, now, about those lotto numbers… 😉
      Oh John Oliver – I do heart that guy! I enjoyed that episode way more than I probably should have – particularly the last 5 minutes or so. It just sums up 2016 so well. *sigh*
      Seriously though thanks for the good thoughts. Some days you just need to keep it real and I so appreciate that I have people that understand that.

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  2. Awww!!! Great big hugs to you my friend!! Happy Happy Birthday!! Wish I was close enough to come take you out and I would let you cry if you wanted to 🙂
    I love your honesty in the post, even though I hate that you are feeling bad. Hoping and praying that things can start looking up for you!! Give your precious cat a hug.. and Dewey sends one to 🙂 He will be around tomorrow to help lift your spirits!
    My mom has fibromyalgia and I understand how bad it can make you feel! 😦 Sinus infections are awful as well! Sending healthy thoughts your way and prayers! ❤

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    • Seriously, thank you so much for all your kind words ❤ I can't tell you how much I appreciate the support! Hopefully we'll get to meet up face-to-face one day and have that nice long talk – I'm looking forward to it 🙂
      I'm always happy to see Dewey pop up – I sent your page to my friend so she can share his story with my niece. She's just old enough now to appreciate all the stories – can't wait til I can read her the books!

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